This life has taken a turn...

Well, its back to Uni on monday. I haven't done any of my required reading, which really, really isn't what I intended. I just got lazy and did nothing. Really, really bad but I guess it'll be alright. I'll do it, it will just be a bit of a rush.
Timetable looks alright, 2 days a week, maybe 3 if I'm unlucky with the seminar groups, but at least it means i'll spend a fair bit of time on campus, getting my work done. Figure I *really* need to buy some headphones so I can listen to music whilst doing my work in the library. Wish I could find my mp3 player though, really sucks not having it The worst thing is that i know it has to be somewhere i just have no idea where at all. Grrr.

Alex is currently on campus, finding out all his info for freshers (again) hopefully his timetable has some lectures when I am free, so I get a little me-time. That'd be fine with me, i guess after spending the whole summer with him i do want some me time!

I'm going to do some reading now. Intro to linguistics me thinks!

1 thing I learnt since my last post: I'm never going to be able to do exactly what I want.

So, its almost time to head back to uni. The summer has nearly gone, and wow did it go quickly! Spent the whole of Thursday on university campus sorting out Alex. Basically, he failed one of his compulsory modules and so couldn't carry on with his course. Has to start all over again, Part A, of a different course. This puts all my plans back a year. I was annoyed about this, but i guess it'll be ok. I'm trying to think of the positives, like the fact I can do another year of Taekwondo, rather than the negatives that I can't go to Canada for a year longer than I wanted.

Got my Performance Review at work next week. Slightly nervous about this. I think I should be alright, but basically, its the 3 month review and if i haven't done well enough in this time then I lose my job Hopefully it won't come to this, because then i'd have to try and find a new one, which is never easy. Took me long enough to get the first one. Financially, I'm finally settling down into a good routine of not spending more than i earn. This week went a bit out the window because i realised I hadn't bought any of the books i needed for my course, so had to spend a few hours on ebay trying to find all of these. That was not so fun..but its all sorted now.
Student loan should come through in a couple of weeks, the only problem being that because of a change of course alex's is going to be delayed, so i might have to help him out with that. Its not a problem, but i do wish he had filled in the form so that it could be sent off and they could at least start to sort it out!!!!! I'll make him do it when he gets home later, and then drop it off in the post box on the way to work. Hopefully that'll be alright. My loan shouldn't be a problem though cos i sent the forms back in plenty of time and nothing has changed from last year so im still getting the little loan. Thankfully this gets doubled by my job so this year should be a lot easier financially.

Going to alton towers on wednesday Should be fun! Although wierdly i want to go on the less rollercoastery rides which i havent been on before, rather than the big ones. I dunno, sometimes I'm wierd.

I think thats all for now.

1 thing i learnt since the last entry: I really need to sort out my clumsyness problems. I keep walking into things!

So, here goes.
Family. So, i spy, i do things wrong that I know I shouldn't do, and do you want to know why? Because people don't tell me ANYTHING. He didn't tell me he'd been to see his dad, and knows a LOT of stuff about my family that I don't even know. I mean seriouly? If its to do with me, you could at least tell me.
So apparently my dads had affairs with her before, so all the shit he's told me about how 'nothing had happened' and 'john overreacted' was just bull. And theres more, law breaking, affairs in the past (which im not suprised about, due to that being how my dad's always been... so i'll break it down for ya!

Mum.
Always the one who's side i was on. always. till she threw it right back in my face. I let her be involved in my life, let her meet my boyfriends parents, and what does she do? Form friendships with them? For starters, then decided to screw over their marriage by having an affair with Simon. Thats right, my boyfriends dad. Awesome, seriously. So first she tried to trick me into leaving with her, and then she was gonna move simon in later, not sure why she thought that was the right thing to do, but apparently she did. I was all for moving out with her, until i found out about the affair. Eugh. I can't deny that I miss her though. I miss having a mother figure in my life, i miss talking to her and just having what we had. But she ruined that, and I don't know if it'll ever come back, i really, really don't. I just wish she had never, ever done this. and I believe theres a part of her that believes that too. Or at least i hope there is. Who knows...

Simon
Alex's dad. Without a doubt one of my most despised people in the world. He was wierd to begin with. What annoys me is that he talks to alex, but alex doesn't tell me. I feel so stranded, as its my family that they talk about, well more my dad. But yes, i get told nothing. All i know is that he 'misses us'. Bull. If he had thought it through then he wouldnt have had to miss us! I blame him, i really do. I know it's probably partially my mums fault, but i blame him, because its hard to blame my own flesh and blood, it really is. Just stay out of my life, but don't secretly invade it, bringing things between me and alex, ruining our relationship, its already on the rocks and we don't need your 'help'!

Dad&Bev
Its hard to get mad at the man who provides me with everything financially, but at what cost? I hear things from both sides about finances, and to be honest I don't actually know whats happening there. He keeps asking me if I'm ok with them moving to tenerife, when honestly I'l be relieved when they go. It'll sign the end of an era, a sign that this horrible, horrible saga is over. I havent even started on Bev. I mean, fair enough, whatever its his life. But moving her in, and then only telling me when you realise that i'll be coming home, thats a bit harsh. as is letting her 10 year old sleep in my bed, without fecking telling/asking me. thats just plain rude, really. And it means that she slept in his bed from the start, which doesn't exactly fit the whole 'she had nowhere to go', have some people not got any friends, or have never heard of HOTELS? So she comes in my life, changes everything, brings her 4 cats, covering the house in cat hair so i struggle to breathe, going to bed at 10, thus meaning i have to shut up, have the tv on so i can barely hear it, or just go to bed myself. Its bloody ridiculous. I really, really wish that it hadn't happened. Fair enough i want my dad to be happy i guess, but again, like mum, he had to do it a complicated, silly way with people who are already almost in the family. Bev was brought up as my auntie, but now shes trying to be my mother, I really can;t be chuffing doing with it. argh.

I think im gonna sit down with alex later and say, 'look, i know you know stuff that you haven't told me about my own family. So tell me. I need to know. We can't have secrets' I'll give him a chance to tell me all he knows. We will see....

I think thats about it for now.
The thing that sparred all this off is the fact its mums birthday today. And to be honest, i want to say happy birthday. But i want it to be like it was 3 years ago

1 Thing I learnt since the last entry: I still have some seriously unresolved issues with my family.

Went out last night, for Francis' and Gemma's leaving night out. Pretty good actually. Was meant to be gangsters, but i forgot to buy new clothes, so just wore a dress i already owned, was still ok though, cos sophie and becky came out and weren't in fancy dress at all so i didnt look a complete tool. Went to Wild again, I'm actually looking forward to going somewhere else, as thats the only place we ever seem to go, dunno why. Its ok, but the music ain't great. Once you've heard all the same 'chart' songs at work, its not all thats great to hear the same songs when you go out!! When we got kicked out at 3, went back to Bethan and Sophies for a bit, sophie's room is cool, i sometimes wish i was an art-kid so that i could come up with cool ideas of decorating etc. I am going to do a 'summer book' though, well just more of a scrapbook, but it should be fun to do. and look good too!

Am apparently going out again tonight, as its Chris's birthday, hopefully it stays as a house party, as i can't really afford to go out again cos it is quite expensive and i did less hours than normal this week! I guess it'll be alright though.

I've just noticed... its telling me how many characters i've used, but its telling me in GERMAN?? How wierd/confusing/slightly cool as its different is that. Zeichen= characters, i think?

Now I'm gonna watch f1 qualifying, nip into town to get a scrapbook, then pay off my food tab at work (and pick up my uniform that i left there last night) and then home. I've gotta make tea for alex as well, he's working til 5, then im working at 7.30, so its just easier that i start the food. Hopefully i will stop coughing by then, don't like cooking when I'm ill

1 thing I learnt since the last entry: My opinion of anyone who does drugs, even just smoking weed, drops the minute i find out.

Just noticed that my 'bold' 'underlined' 'italics' and 'linethrough' are also all in german!

Ok, so alex went home yesterday because he was ill. A cough/cold. Anyway, I was meant to be working tonight, which suited me fine because it meant I wouldn't be sat at home all alone But then at 5pm (working at 6.30) My boss Jo rang me up to tell me it wasn't going to be busy so I wasnt needed. This was too late to organise anything, so now I'm bored due to the fact I have nothing to do. Well, the dishes need washing, the house needs tidying, but to be honest I don't want to do any of that. Got told that Jo would make it fair for me next week, so that probably means 5 shifts next week. Not sure if thats good or bad :S

Walked up to campus today, to ask when the timetables were gonna be produced, but they didn't have them so that was a bit of a failure. Managed to get hold of a campus parking permit though, so it wasn't completely a wasted journey, but still annoying. Timetables to be released later this week i was told, although you never can be sure as things are often late!

Meeting my friend tomorrow, after a meeting at work- that should be good. Then going home on wednesday for a 'back to uni' meal. Wierd leaving uni, to go for a meal to go back to uni but thats what I get for spending my whole summer in loughborough. Its actually been quite lonely, but at least its gone relatively quickly and i've got paid for it, so all in all, not too bad.

I reckon thats enough for now...

Hello!

I'm Charly. 19 years old, living in Loughborough. At University here, studying English Literature. My family live in Chesterfield, Sheffield, and Derby, but here is home for me now. I work at a restaurant called 'The Basin', 16 hours a week (sometimes more) and its pretty good. I ski, I do Taekwondo, I like to ice skate (even though i'm not good) and a few other things. I don't exactly fit your average 'student' profile. Not a big drinker, or a big clubber, but I go occasionally. I prefer house parties to clubbing, but there we go, one of them things.

My current life plan is to graduate in 2010. Then i will keep working until December 2010, and this is when I make my life changing move. I'm going to go to Canada for 3 months, get my ski instructor qualifications and then move somewhere to ski instruct. And not come back. Mayb it'll be Canada, maybe New Zealand, maybe Sweden, the Alps, somewhere. Thats all i know for now. Looking out the window right now, seeing the rain, being trapped in the house because of the bad weather makes me even more determined. My family is already leaving the country in '09 to tenerife, so theres nothing holding me back. I can do it. It involves saving up a lot of money to do it, but it'll be worth it in the end. I want to see the world, and doing it before I'm held down by a mortgage, career or anything else seems like the right time to do it. The only thing I will miss will be my car but, i'll have to think of that closer to the time. Its 2 years before i will go, and anything can happen in that time.

So... thats the plan.